Tonight my elder brother shared a story with me. On his 25th birthday he celebrate with over 30 to 40 friends. They all took turns to wish and cheer him with drinks an so he drank and got drunk . After he arrived home, alone in his apartment, depression and loneliness took over him. Everything spiral downwards. He was emotional and physically miserable. He hated this feeling and thought to himself, “Why did I drink? I don’t like alcohol. What was all the drinking for? Not for myself… but for the enjoyment of others.”
He swore not to drink alcohol again and he would only do things that made himself happy. By this time it was 5am, to brush off these feelings he decide to go for a morning drive. As he drove, he noticed the sign in front of the church had changed. With the sunrise peeking from behind, the sign read, “To Believe, Just Believe”. At that moment epiphany hit him. “To be Happy, Just be Happy”, “To Love, Just Love” This can be applied to life in many ways, it was all that simple.
I am very touched knowing that God had answered my prayers. He was watching over and taking care of him. After all these years of being alone he has turn out to be a very good, strong, and kind man. I am not as strong as him and have many doubts if I will ever be, but I will not give up. I will always strive to better myself daily. Yet my brothers says,
 “To Believe, Just Believe. If you truly understand something you will not need to try, you will know how to apply it without difficulty in all things. It’s as simple as that.”
~ 哥哥
I guess I don’t get it yet… I guess I will know when I don’t have to try… So simple yet so deep…
Sleep, ummm I love it! I slept very well last night. I think 10hrs. That’s a first in a long time especially at my rental place where noise keeps me awake. It helps a bit to have one housemate away on vacation. I love sleeping and dreaming so much, I use to really look forward to dreaming when I could sleep. Hopefully with more sleep I can start dreaming those cute dreams I use to have again ^_^
“God answers prayers not because we are his friends, God answers prayers because we persist. Wrestle with God until he blesses you. Ask, ask, ask and pray, pray, pray until he gives his blessing!”
~Today’s Pastor
I never knew prayer could be so aggressive. Although God provides all, you still have to wrestle with Him and ask persistently for what you want. You have to really want what you ask for and not just hope you’ll get it somehow. Be determined in your efforts and in all you do. With strength and faith as strong as a wrestler refusing to loose a match, one day, you will get what you want. Do not be timid to ask for what you want.
Fight for your happiness with persistence!
